BLOG : UPDATE

Hi guys!

I want to say something. I have the feeling that I have been letting myself down a little bit. I am a little lazy and I don’t have a lot of inspiration lately because of the fact that I overthink a lot of things and there is no place left in my brain to generate new ideas. This is resulting in the fact that I have been neglecting my blog and youtube account. I really love writing and expressing myself through writing and filming. Sometimes I don’t even get a hold of myself because of the mere fact that I have too many ideas. This isn’t the case lately. I really want to push myself to write more and make more creative material not only because it is my passion but because it makes me happier. It is kind of a vicious circle. I am to lazy to write, so I don’t write resulting in the fact that I get less happy and motivated resulting in the fact that I still. Don’t. Write. And not only this but the fact that I am really insecure about my writing ability and talent to entertain people stops me from doing what I love. I am really insecure about what I am good at or not good at. I never think anything is good enough to post and I never want to post things that aren’t perfect. I always want my ideas to be very original and cool, and I don’t want to share things that aren’t original or perfect. I am just a difficult person I guess (ask my friends and former friends haha). Normally I don’t really care about what other people think of what I do or what I say, but in this case it’s different. Writing makes you vulnerable in a way that you sometimes express feelings and emotions that you are to scared to share with the world. And I know that I don’t always have to write about heavy things, and I also like writing about more light stuff, but I do like to write about it. It is a way to express my feelings and I have done it my whole life. The only difference with when I was younger is that I now share my writing with you guys. I know that you will never judge me by what I write in my blogposts and that you will never gossip about it (and I don’t care about people gossiping), but it’s just harder to write knowing that people are going to read it. I also know that I don’t HAVE to post everything but I like sharing my life with the world. I always have, that is part of the reason that I was bullied. So sometimes writing a blogpost gives me mixed feelings.

But I realize now that I need to put everything aside. I love writing and I love sharing. That’s all. I need to stop overthinking things and just go with the flow, so that is exactly what I am going to do. You guys are going to hear a lot more of me. I am going to sometimes write a smaller blogpost just about what I did that day, what I wore that week or what I made myself for dinner that week. But don’t worry, I will never stop talking about the more serious things in life because I am of the opinion that someone has to write about them and I really like helping people. And I hope that me sharing my experiences in life sometimes helps you feel better or makes you change things in your life.

Sorry for the lack of creativity and posts. I promise you it will change!

See you very soon!

XOXO

Laura(LICIOUS)

A day in the week of Laura #1

Hi guys! I got the idea to start a new series called : A day in the life of Laura. I will write you guys about my day in a blogpost so that you guys get to see what I like to do and that you guys can see that I’m just an ordinary human being like all of you.

10:30 AM : I wake up with my boyfriend lying next to me wondering what time it is. We would normally wake up at 9 AM to go do some sports at the fitness centre. But I have this feeling that it isn’t 9 AM. I wouldn’t know what time it is because I don’t wake up from an alarm clock in the morning. Don’t ask me why but I just think my body refuses to get out of bed. I wake up my boyfriend and ask him if he knows the time because my phone is charging in the other room. My boyfriend takes a glance at his phone and like I thought it isn’t 9 AM, it’s 10:30. That’s my boyfriend’s fault. He turned of the alarm clock when we had to wake up and fell asleep again. YAY, no sports today! Okay, maybe not so yay, because I really need to go do some sports because I want to have a rocking bikini body by summer. I am already eating really healthy, making healthy juices and working out at least 1 time a week. But the working out part needs to be more. I am going to do a Blogilates youtube video after writing this post so that my body does get some exercise today.

11 AM : Still laying in bed with my boyfriend. We are both checking our phones and we decide to get out of bed. My boyfriend takes a shower first (this is always the case) and meanwhile I post my Instagram post for the day.

11:20 AM : Boyfriend goes out to get some bread to eat for lunch and get ready.

11:40 AM : Boyfriend is back and we already start to eat because my boyfriend has to do something for school before he needs to go to class.

12:20 PM : I try to make a selfie but the lighting is off because of this horrific weather and I give up after a few minutes. I get bored and I start petting Frosty.

13 PM : Cuddling with le boyfriend

13:30 PM : Boyfriend takes off to class and I am alone. First I don’t really know what to do and I just start an Instagram session and like some of my bloggerfriends’ photos.

14:30 PM : The Instagram session got a little out of hand. It is really addictive at times (lol). But I decide to put on another sweater that looks better with my new pink raincoat. I put my hair in a ponytail and I put on some make-up. All ready to go!

15 PM : Locking the door of my apartment. It’s time to go on the hunt for some food. I decided to make some salmon/mango salsa wraps. But I needed ingredients so here I am walking through the streets of Ghent on a hunt for salmon and mango.

15:15 PM : I enter Albert Heijn and I start picking everything I need to make some dinner tonight. Where the fuck is the sour cream. I really can’t find it anywhere

15:25 PM : After 10 minutes of searching I find this little jar of sour cream. I take two of them. I also get this : Mango, Red onions, Avocado, Salmon, Lemon ( 5 minutes later : the person behind the cash register forgets to scan the lemon and I forget I even took one in the first place and after walking out of the store I realize that I don’t have my lemon. Reaction : I text my boyfriend if he can go buy a lemon after class). I also bought Peanut butter because that is kind of my new addiction at the moment also because I discovered that it isn’t making you fatter, it even helps you get more muscles when you work out after you ate some!

15:40 PM : walking home with the LA LA LAND soundtrack in my ears. I am trying to control myself because I am kind of dance-walking through the streets and I kind of look ridiculous. Not that I care but yeah, maybe I should stop.

16 PM : Back home and I decide to make myself some apple/ginger juice. I drank this in Father Carpenter in Berlin and now I am addicted to it.

16:30 PM : Juice is all done and I start writing THIS particular blogpost. (#mindfuck)

So that is what I already did today. This is what I am probably going to do for the rest of my day :

  • Exercise : video by Blogilates : probably the muffintops workout because I really need to get rid of mine.
  • Petting Frost.
  • Making dinner.
  • Looking at an episode of Jane the Virgin, Shadowhunter or The Vampire Diaries. (still deciding)
  • Making myself some fittea detox.
  • Watching ‘mijn pop-up restaurant’ = LITTLE DUTCH PART
    • wie is jouw favoriet?? Ik vind Madam P. super leuk en hun eten ziet er echt geweldig uit! Daar zou ik echt wel eens willen gaan eten. Meat en Griet gaan waarschijnlijk winnen volgens mij. Hun eten ziet er echt fantastisch uit en hun concept is super. Ook hun logo vind ik echt super origineel. En de gedrevenheid van Leena is zeer inspirerend. Ook Filly’s vind ik een super leuk concept en hun eten ziet er ook echt fantastisch uit. Hun Antwerps accent ergert me soms een klein beetje maar dat is echt het enige. Ik ben niet zo’n fan van Tjops omdat daar precies altijd zo een depressief sfeertje hangt. Ze spreken vrij eentonig en het ziet er niet echt naar uit dat ze plezier maken. Ik vind dat de jongens niet zo veel charisma hebben en dat is echt wel spijtig want hun concept is wel zeer goed gevonden. Ook vind ik dat het BBQ vlees niet mooi genoeg gepresenteerd is. Je zou echt iets veel leukers kunnen doen hiermee. Vooral ook het nagerecht vind ik niet zo goed doordacht. Een banaan met chocolade op de BBQ met een zelfgemaakt bolletje ijs in de plaats van wat ze nu hebben zou voor mij een groot verschil maken. Gewoon iets meer enthousiasme en originaliteit zou al stukken beter zijn! 🙂 Table O ben ik ook niet echt een super harde fan van. Het eten zal waarschijnlijk wel lekker zijn maar ik vind hun interieur niet echt gezellig en ik zou er zelf niet willen gaan eten. Vraag me niet waarom want ik weet het niet zo goed, maar hun pop-up spreekt me niet echt aan. Het vijfde element vind ik ook wel nog een leuk concept omdat ik persoonlijk heel erg graag verloren/vergeten groenten eet. Ik denk als ze dit nog ietsje meer uitwerken en het nog beter maken dat dit concept zeker een kans maakt. Emily lijkt me alleszins wel al een zeer goede gastvrouw, ookal is ze some een beetje TOO MUCH. 😀
  • SLEEEEEP : my favorite part of the day.

 

SO! this was my day in a nutshell. I hope you guys enjoyed my post. Tell me what you think about me doing a series of these kind of blogposts and go hit the follow button on my homepage (in the right bar) for more. You can also always leave a like.

Thanks for reading,

XOXO

Laura(Licious)

LauraLiciouss’ A-Z guide to Happiness

Hi guys! Today I will be posting a A-Z guide to Happiness. To make your lives easier and happier. Here we go!

A : ALWAYS stay true to who you are, what you want to be and where you want to go in your life. Don’t care about other people and their opinions. Only care about them if they are positive. If they are negative, the people saying them to you or behind your back are probably just pieces of shit.

B : BANANAS. Eat loads of them, it’s healthy and makes you feel happier.

C : CONFIDENCE. This is one of the most important words you need to remember. You need to believe in yourself, you need to believe that you are beautiful in your own way. And you are the best version of yourself, not what other people want you to be. (another potential C word is COFFEE, the smell of coffee just always puts a smile on your face.)

D : DREAM. Dare to Dream. And if you have a dream, go after it. It can only come true if you put some effort into it. (or DELETE : Delete toxic people from your life asap)

E : ENERGY. You need to try not to lock yourself up and get yourself to do things that you love. People with less energy are less happy. Get out there, life is too short to just stay at home.

F : FRIENDS. Everybody needs someone to tell everything to. But be cautious. Not all friends are what they seem to be. Some of them can in fact be backstabbing. Be careful who you chose to be your friend. If you don’t feel comfortable or happy near your so-called friend, you’d probably be better of without her or him.

G : GOAL. You need to set some life goals. If you don’t have any goals in life, you are probably going to end up being miserable.

H : HARRY POTTER. Makes me happy every time. Can’t imagine it not making somebody happy.

I : INSPIRE. Try to do something with your life that inspires others. It feels so good if you are an inspiration to someone and it gives you an amazing feeling of accomplishment.

J : JAZZ. Thanks to the amazing movie LA LA LAND, I discovered that listening to Jazz actually does make you feel better. You should really give it a try.

K : KINDNESS. If you give kindness, the right people will give you kindness back. And it also makes you feel very good when you are kind to someone or help someone. Maybe you will have some GOOD KARMA in return for your kindness. WIN WIN.

L : LAUGH. The more you laugh, the better. This is the best thing there is in the world. You laugh when your happy, but you also feel happier when you are laughing. It’s scientifically proven, I mean it.

M : MUSIC. Do I really need to explain this one? No didn’t think so either.

N : NATURE. Take a walk outside, go to a forest or go for a run. Enjoy this amazing planet and try to realize that your problems are not so big as they might seem. Try to remember that we live on such an amazing and beautiful planet.

O : OPERA. haha lol no JUST KIDDING
OPTIMISE : Try to look on the bright side of life ( tuuduu tudu tudu tuduuuuu … Am I the only one singing this song right now)

P : PARENTS. A good relationship with your family and your parents will definitely have a big effect on your life. You always need to try to remember how important family is. Never take it for granted.

Q : QUIT. NEVER QUIT TOO SOON. You will regret it and this will not be positive for your happiness level.

R : ROADTRIP. If you don’t know what to do with yourself and you are very very down. Go on a road trip with the people you love. It will give  you a lot of amazing smiles, laughs and memories.

S : SING SING SING. Singing makes everything better. Why do you think people shower so long? Because it is the best place to sing and let it all go. Just let yourself go in a song once in a while! You won’t regret it.

T : TALK. If you really feel bad. Talk about it to someone. Talking to someone about why you feel sad will always help. I know it from experience. But do talk to someone you trust. You don’t want the whole school to know about your problems, right?

U : UNICORNS. Always makes me smile lol.

V : VACATION. Feel sad? Go on a vacation to the sun and recharge!

W : WAFFLES. a MUST on your path to happiness

X : XMAS. Christmas is the happiest time of the year. Celebrate this amazing holiday with all of the people you love and it will bring you so much joy!

Y : YOLO. I know this is a stupid word but hear me out. You really do live once! Don’t let life pass you by! Do all of the things you want to do because your life can be over tomorrow. Live every day to its fullest

Z : ZEBRA. It’s just so cuuuute 🙂

So these are my A-Z words you will need to be happy!

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XOXO

Laura ( LICIOUS)

10 000 Followers on Instagram…

Today I hit 10 000 followers on Instagram… I seriously can’t believe it. 10 000 people that like my pictures, that are interested in my life. If you had told me a few years ago that I would hit so many followers in 2017 on Instagram, I would’ve laughed so hard. Me, 10 000 followers, what kind of crazy person thinks I would ever be able to accomplish such a thing.

When I was younger I was bullied so hard, that I sometimes didn’t know who I was anymore. I was never good enough. I was always the laughing stock in school and always the person that bullies wanted to hurt. Don’t ask me why, because trust me I don’t know. I tried not to care about these bullies and most of the time it worked out. But the bullying got so hard that I even went to the police to report two boys for stalking. (not kidding).

There has been thrown paint on my driveway, me and my parents have been called in the middle of the night just to hear a person laughing on the other end of the line, people tried to force me to show my breasts in front of the webcam on msn via groupchat, … The list goes on and on and on. After I went to the police, the active bullying stopped. But the passive (talking behind the back and never talking to my face) bullying never stopped. And then there was this thing where my ex-boyfriend wanted to take advantage of me being vulnerable after my family’s big accident. He wanted to get me to have sex with him and when I told him he had to choose between being friends or being in a relationship. He chose to ignore me for almost a whole year. I got to a point in my life where everything was just black and dark. Thanks to my best friend I got out of that dark place and my boyfriend helped me make some difficult but necessary life changing decisions. For Example : I had to change from law school to psychology and I had to leave all of my friends behind.

Basically I kinda had a hard life. My life was a mess really, but I never stopped being myself. I have already told you guys that the bullies never got to my personality. I never changed my personality to fit in, nor my style. But it did affect my self-esteem a lot. I didn’t think I was good enough for anything and I thought I was ugly and that people hated me. Thanks to my mother and my amazing boyfriend, my self-esteem got a whole lot better but it is still not what it should be.

The only positive thing about the bullies and the shit in my life is that I ended up having a I don’t give a fuck what people think attitude. Last year in January, I discovered Instagram. I really liked making pictures and sharing stuff with other people, so this seemed the perfect opportunity for me to create a new hobby. At first there weren’t many likes, but I didn’t really care about that because I just loved posting things and sharing my world with other people. Then suddenly it all exploded. I began to get a lot of followers. I didn’t know what was happening when I hit 1K. OMG 1K, what?? How are there 1000 people interested in me?? I couldn’t believe it and I was very happy when this happened. People were interested in me being just, me.

The numbers kept coming and coming and eventually there were brands that started to contact me. Brands that wanted to give me free things in return for an instagram pic? Really? What is happening??

In June I posted a few photos of me in my bikini. The first pic I posted just exploded. I got so many likes and comments. I could not believe my eyes. And then, there were girls who started contacting me. Asking me how I have so much confidence, how did I have so much courage to post a picture of me in a bikini. There were so many girls that asked me for advice on confidence etc. I didn’t believe it at first. Me… the girl who got bullied her whole life, who got to very dark places in her head. People wanted to follow me, to befriend me, to talk to me and give me things. But I do have to say that I never accept free stuff if it isn’t part of my personality or my style. I want to stay true to myself throughout everything and I think everybody should do that!

I also started a blog and a youtube account throughout the whole process because I just really love to write and I adore making videos. I didn’t make a blog to have more followers, but because I had been writing since I was little. There are some people on Instagram, who don’t even like writing but who do start a blog. I don’t know why, I think it is for the followers and to get more collaborations with brands but this has never been the goal for me. I just love sharing my point of view and my stories with the rest for the world. Not to get anything out of it but just because I love writing!

Instagram has changed my life so much in so many aspects of my life. It made me realize that I am not stupid or lame or ugly. It enhanced my confidence and self-esteem. I have made new friendships and I have discovered new parts of my personality. I also discovered that some people only start talking to you again because of your follower count and I realized who I wanted to delete from my life. Some people are just toxic and if they don’t make you feel good about yourself, just hit the delete button. Life is to short to spend time on those people.

Instagram made me realize that I love posing for photos and that I love making pictures and sharing them with people who care. I had always loved fashion and style, but thanks to Instagram I discovered whole new parts of fashion that I didn’t know existed. It made me love fashion even more. It made me start blogging and it helped me write better. It gave me the little punch in the back to start youtube, and I am getting better at it every day.

Thanks to all of you guys I realized what I wanted in life and who I wanted to be. I opened up a lot more not only to my real friends and my boyfriend, but also to myself. I re-discovered myself and this whole experience made me happier than ever. Not because I like getting followers, but just because I discovered new parts of myself that I really like.

So I just want to thank you guys, for making all of this happen. You guys make me feel better about myself every hour of the day. Thank you so so so much for all of this. I do all of this not only for you guys, but also for myself. I really appreciate all of the love that I get from all of you and I will never forget this. If I can give you guys one tip, never stop being yourself. Even if everything is dark and life isn’t treating you well. There is always light at the end of the tunnel. I guess I am the perfect example. Just never give up on your dreams guys, dreams can do come true.

Thank you!

Love,

Laura